Rustic Red ...

Inspiration for a fall milestone 

All seasonal ideas  ... one season blending into another ... keeping busy with ideas ... and the forthcoming fall and academic year ... soothing day ... a change is good as a rest ... back to being analysed this week ... the tables will be turned eventually ... what goes around comes around ...

Restful Day ...

... still making plans ... my mind does not rest ... words floating about ... when I have eaten will try and type some out ... and sharing more of my works ... daughter catching up with my poetry ... was able to tell her in person a lot ... last month ... intrigued ... boyfriend didn't know ... until helped in retrieving items and discussions came up ... 

Creativity unfortunately lost ... destroyed or suppressed ... in those times ... so all are very happy to see I am finally continuing ... despite lost works ... nothing you can do about the past ... so enjoy this now ... 

I often told my hubby to use updated tec to record his beautiful voice ... only daughter capturing it ... do we have some of it  ... it was lost in his illness ... sadly ...

Inspiration from the park
Summer 2015

Then came the drizzle ...

... just as I was walking along the grass ... on a circular walk taken me pass and through the next village from my town ... on arriving back home felt a lot more refreshed ... giving me a more relaxed evening ... so  am hoping for a more settled Bank Holiday weekend ... My family have been very supportive while my care is not conducive again ...

the sun is shining

For how long?... and a tad in my heart today... achievements in my works ... and hope to sort my yarn stash and work out colours and make some simple items that don't take time to swiftly pass some time these long evenings coming again ... I tend to be dawn to dusk on a good day and settle down to craft by daylight lamp...as I once did ...

But catching up ....

with leisure activities so missed during our silly season ... spending an evening in the fresh crisp air of late Summer watching the annual August bank holiday fireworks ... followed by a bag of chips with sweet and sour sauce ...

Miss the ...

... the little things ... on feeling woozy after a bath ... on little food ... the basic functions ... and having to sit a while before can get a drink ... usually I have the necessary items to hand on a good day ... par for the course until my health is back on track ... and have more energy again ... mental health so impacts physical ... but still the poor relation in the health service ... which since 1948 has done wonders for the populations health ... but still our archaic history on mental health reflects even in this system ... come a long way ... but still much to go ...

Focusing on the Good ...

... with a bit of difficulty ... getting back to task in hand ... the here and now and ... forward ... island life even more of a draw ... so many options ... open to me ...now is the time to try and enjoy this ... 

lots of smiles today ... so I must have been smiling today ...

Life is never dull ...

... just the pain ... that no-one can ever see ... as you go about day to day ... just as a lot of others do ... the amount of lonely people in this busy world around us and even though we are surrounded by so much they are still lonely .... as confided along this journey of those who knew my late hubby ... for a lot of people may have said bad things ... a lot too who knew him better appreciated what he did for them personally or in helping his community ...

adjusting the time

As always is now... adapting to the mood ... 

... either I am hearing things or the door is busy...but all seems far away 

my dilemma

Either I misunderstood life or life misunderstood me

Still it goes on ...

... stay so focused ... still carries on ... time and again only we know as we only would >>>we see life only from our viewpoint ... through our eyes ... 

All those comments ... advice .... will do ... but don't ... lies ... shunned ... all happened and will continue ...

More comments ... to face tomorrow ... 

I am the blame for the *** *********** and ***** ... cos not dealt with swiftly and with common sense 

Don't need this right now ... 

Pain easier to hide or suppress ... than face it ... I face it ... not the easiest thing ever nut better than behind a stupor ... 

With sis support working through the home with my old way of getting things done with the new fears and obsession's unfortunately come my way .... and get in the way ... Life here and now ... 

Let me off today ... double dose of work on de-clutter on Wednesday ... ???

One fall ...

One fall my life was to change beyond recognition after the excitement of our daughter gaining her place at her chosen university that fall ... and the fateful timeline of events unfolding at the same time 

The stigmas and assumptions of both mental health and intelligence and smells did not aid the situation of events ...